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First rotation!

My first clinical rotation is Paediatrics. Third week into clinical postings and I'm honestly still adapting. Working with human is tough. You are expected to put up with shitty attitudes and handle everything with a smile. I kid you not, there are times when I feel like yelling to the kid to just sit still and let me do examinations. But that wouldn't be fair isn't it? Their presence in the ward is not by choice.

When we went to Hospital Pekan, there were only 7 patients and 12 of us students. So everyone mostly clerked the same patients. At night, I wished there would be new cases tomorrow. I was hoping there would be new patients admitted during the afternoon and night. It didn't took me long to figure that its wrong to wish for more people to be sick. Its inhumane and cruel even. A patient is a human first and foremost. Treating them with care and empathy is what I need.

I must have slept while writing the above paragraph and forgot to continue it. I couldn't remember what I was trying to convey LOL. Update, I'm now in the 7th week. Which means this posting is about to end. Which means theres only a few weeks before exam starts. Clinical year is so different. Before this, there is a structured learning whereby you learn topics according to the block, according to the system etc. Now you have to plan how you wanna study. Most of the time, I'm too exhausted with ward work that I sleep whenever I reach the room.
In the beginning I was attached to a few kids who were taken care by rumah kebajikan. Eventually, I started treating patients just like a normal person so I won't have any sort of attachments to them. I understand what empathy means now and why its so much better than sympathy. I understand now that learning is a never ending process and that it needs to be constantly refreshed. If I want to stay relevant in this business, I gotta work harder.Brb I only have a few weeks to save my grade.

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