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Pre-exam anxious ramble;

Often, when you're worried and express your worries, the people around will reassure that you can do it. In fact, they express confidently that you will be fine, you will be able to answer and pass  with flying colours.

Sometimes it makes me feel as if my worries are irrelevant.  As if my worries are not legit. No one knows how worried you are deep inside when you say you're worried. No one knows how scared you are of the future.Everyone sees the brighter side but you can only see the darker side.The side that holds the insecurities,worries,anxiety.The side that keeps us laying awake at night.

Its so hard to believe that you can do it, let alone convincing yourself that you will get through this. Its a constant battle and you tell yourself everyday that you're going to make it. For once I would love to see myself from another person's point of view so I could believe in myself.       In a weird way, exam has its own way of bringing us closer to Him. Our prayers…

Coping with myself ;

From the frequency of my blog update, you guys could probably tell how hectic life(aka lots and lots more to read) and how lazy I have become in writing. I still jot down things on my journal and think about things to write(especially during lectures coz I'm a bad student) but really haven't put much effort into writing. I wrote something last week but I stopped halfway. I don't know why.
     For a long time, I constantly feel the need to prove myself. I wanted to prove that I am better than what people think of me. I wanted to prove people wrong for underestimating me. My determination has always been fueled by the need to prove that I am better than everyone who talks behind ny back.
       I thought after highschool ends, my attitude would change and I would be doing things because I want it. I tried putting my goals to drive me forward but occasionally, this feeling of wanting to prove something kicks in and I am back to square one.
       People have this abi…