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Tasik Biru Ibam daytrip

Today my friends and I went to Bandar Muadzam Shah a town located about 100km from Kuantan. Awa came up with the idea on a mundane Monday morning while we were both beaten up by the freezing lecture hall and the Monday blues. We planned on visiting the so called "New Zealand" which gained its name due to the greenish scenery and the Tasik Biru Ibam. We're not really adventurous so knowing that it doesn't require much effort to reach the blue lake, is a huge relief (well at least for me).


The drive to Bandar Muadzam Shah took us around two and a half hour. Traffic was clear but the road itself is not in the best condition. From Bandar Muadzam Shah I think we drove for another 15 minutes before reaching Bukit Ibam, the exact location of Tasik Biru or the blue lake.The Blue Lake is actually an old mining site. It is said that the aesthetically pleasing blue colour is a result of copper sulphate sedimentation. No one knows the real depth or what makes the lake e…
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Exponential growth;

Turning 18 and 21 is often used as the marker of adulthood. Having gone through both 18 and 21, I don't feel like I am becoming more of an adult. In fact as each year pass by, I feel like I stopped growing altogether and that each year is passing by without me making any significant changes.

Adulthood is a social construct but transition is expected as we age. With adulthood, the question of maturity comes along. It honestly bothers me so much. Am I mature enough for my age? Does my behaviour reflect my age? Am I choosing the appropriate outfit or does this adds up 10 years to my real age? Mature itself is very subjective as more often than not, we know someone who is younger but very mature in making decision etc. There are no specific measure to determine one's maturity. Writing this made me realize that maybe I am glorifying the idea of adulthood.

Physical development might have stopped for some of us but the psychological and intellectual …

2017

In my head, 2017 does not officially start until my hand get used to writing it without any hesitation. Its still at that awkward phase of the year where your hand impulsively writes 2016 and you have to scratch the 6 and write 7. LOL. I actually thought it was still January until almost every beauty guru on YouTube uploaded their January favourites! So lets move on Nabilah, the trial month is over now.

The last blog post was published when I was on my home for grandma's funeral. Al-Fatihah. It all happened very sudden. Her condition deteriorated very fast within the last 24 hours of her life.It goes to remind us all that life is indeed short and fast paced.
This year, I have made a few new year resolution just to add some new excitement in my dull life. In psychology they said personality is not fixed,not until you are 30 years old. So I am 8 years away from shaping myself into the best version before I have to live with the said personality. Oh my …

Perspective

Perspective/pərˈspektiv ; noun
defined as:
a particular attitude toward or way of regarding something; a point of view.


At this age, I have encountered a few people who only see things from their point of view. They are strongly opiniated and always think that they are right. Some turns life into a competition, always wanting to emphasize that they had it worst than you.
When it comes to opinion,of course each individual would be inclined to believe that their own opinion is the truest of em all. I think its very crucial that one have the decency to consider things from another perspective.

As a social media addict(self-proclaimed) I have seen many status on Facebook and tweets that sounds condemning instead of educating. I admit I might be guilty of this too... I have to be honest, there are times when I wanted so badly to comment on certain issues but I stopped myself because I sound arrogant and condemning others for not knowing.
The doctors,med…

Reality

"I am so scared of losing people that matters to me. As much as I understand that everyone will eventually leave this world, I couldn't bear the thoughts of not being able to see someone ever again. Because I am selfish and losing someone forever scares me so much.
My grandma (inak) has been admitted to the hospital yesterday. She complained that her body is aching. The doctor said there is electrolyte imbalance in her body. A sign of renal failure as it can no longer regulate the electrolyte. Her ECG showed myocardial infarction, she is dependent on oxygen mask now. Her blood pressure is fluctuating but is on the low side. It seems like her health is deteriorating even further compared to this morning.

Being away from home, I couldn't do anything but pray. Prayer transcends the distance, prayer is the only thing that helps to put my mind at ease. I couldn't concentrate on what I was studying. My first reaction when my dad sent pictures of …

In place of what is lost, something new emerges ;

It's been quite a while since I last wrote anything here. Maybe that's just a thing with me, I aways stop halfway. Ok so when I first sign up for this blog, I promised myself to not let negativity and the stressed part of me affect my post. But it did anyway because who am I kidding how can I stop myself from doing something that I do on a daily basis ? So a depressing, melancholic, sad,cheesy post this is going to be. You have been warned.

Alhamdulillah I am now in year 2 medic school and all praise to lord for giving me the joy of passing all 4 blocks in the first year. It wasn't a good academic year for me especially during the block 1.

Block 1 highlight:

1.My procrastinating habit is taking its toll on me. I was overwhelmed by the amount of new things that we have to study (and keep in our mind for the rest of our life)

2.I realised I'm a slow learner which means I need extra time to understand a concept. And in medicine, time is never on our side.

3. I …

Pre-exam anxious ramble;

Often, when you're worried and express your worries, the people around will reassure that you can do it. In fact, they express confidently that you will be fine, you will be able to answer and pass  with flying colours.

Sometimes it makes me feel as if my worries are irrelevant.  As if my worries are not legit. No one knows how worried you are deep inside when you say you're worried. No one knows how scared you are of the future.Everyone sees the brighter side but you can only see the darker side.The side that holds the insecurities,worries,anxiety.The side that keeps us laying awake at night.

Its so hard to believe that you can do it, let alone convincing yourself that you will get through this. Its a constant battle and you tell yourself everyday that you're going to make it. For once I would love to see myself from another person's point of view so I could believe in myself.       In a weird way, exam has its own way of bringing us closer to Him. Our prayers…